Wednesday 7 November 2012
when in fact we have yet to free ourselves from them.
Most of our buying is done with a comfortable conscience.
But key items remain that seem impossible to buy with being a hypocrite.
There are some products that I continue to buy at the corporate chains.
Of them is oil and automotive parts and supplies.
We run combustion engines; namely our van and truck, the tractor, and various small-powered machines.
They all need oil in some form or another.
There is no organic, fair-trade, ethical oil.
Petroleum is dirty and powers a mammoth industry that forces it's will everywhere that it exists.
Yet without it, the machines come to a grinding halt.
Having boycotted the big stores, it always feels surreal when I'm cruising the aisles.
It's unnaturally bright, and loaded with metaphor; the world's problems on display.
Of course, it's Christmastime in retail land.
There is the overwhelming urge to vomit while experiencing conflicting emotions of fond childhood memory and the senseless binge of holiday consumption.
Though I bought my oil in bulk,
the futile attempts at justifying the purchase just make me tired.
I don't have all of the solutions, but I know when I have violated my own integrity.
The store feels like a trap, and I just walked right in.
What's worse is that I'll do it again